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A smile can hide so much. TW mention of weight but no numbers. The past few days have been so hard. Behaviors are through the roof. I feel utterly out of control. And at the same time tightly in control - of the eating disorder. I keep wondering if this is rock bottom. I’m feeling certain that one day I’ll look back on this month and see this is awful time. My weight is the lowest it’s been in as long as I can remember. At least since before I was 14 and began weighing myself. Perhaps I was this weight when I was 13? Or 12? I’m 26 now. So why do I still think I look huge? I’m trying to accept that logically I’m not but I feel embarrassed even writing that because surely you will all take one look and be like “ummm yeah you could lose a few pounds.” I’m seeing my dietitian tomorrow. I’m going to talk about eating lots of small snacks as anything bigger results in purging. Then I’ll see my therapist and on Tuesday I’ll see my doctor, and friends later on. I just have to figure out how to get through this week.

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it's so weird to think about how shitty I felt just 24 hrs ago and I thought I couldn't go on but I still felt the aftermath after waking up today. slept in til 1pm and didn't see the point in getting up. did it anyways, as well as some yoga/stretches and after a talk w dad I went for a 1,5 hrs walk. wasn't sure what to do then so I finally "allowed myself" to read this ⬆ book that arrived a few days ago it actually made me a bit emotional. felt sleepy after a while but also wanted to clean so I vacuumed the house and dusted my room + the stairs and then pushed myself to work out for 15 mins and wash my hair! been feeling rather empty and low but for once I didn't stress too much, also bc after overeating I decided to give my body time to digest and rest and not eat anything which took A LOT stress off me. but tmrw I'm gonna eat out for early dinner w my parents and I planned to eat brunch before that but since yd I don't want to eat anything at all and I'm hecking scared now to eat anything sweet, even brunch w fruits so idk what to do tmrw on top of the fear of eating out 😓😰

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Happy Easter to all of you who celebrate it!! Hope everyone has had a wonderful day!

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